While reading Dave_C’s
interesting thread I began studying my own experience more closely, to see if I could define p-consciousness myself. And as an unexpected result I now have to question the so-called “
unity of consciousness.”
But before continuing… a vocabulary note: In this post, the term “being conscious of” is limited in meaning to “having direct conscious experience of.” It does not also have the sense of “knowing/being aware of” that is common in everyday speech (as in e.g. “I am conscious of their feelings.”) So with the p-conscious experience that I refer to here clearly understood – as a direct, firsthand phenomenon – this is how my own experience leads me to understand things:
1. “P-consciousness” is a noun with two different meanings. The meaning that Dave’s thread seems most concerned with is “being p-conscious
of” things – sights, sounds, the movements of our bodies through space and time, thoughts, sense of self, etc.
2. But to me, the clearly more vital use of the noun “p-consciousness” is in reference to the
subject of the manifold of p-conscious experiences – i.e. to their “experiencer.” If these are rightly called “experiences,” then the existence of a continuing p-consciousness that experiences them seems obvious.
But when I try to analyze the nature of this continually existing experiencer (or “subject,” which is the same thing) of these diverse p-conscious experiences… it becomes clear that there is not just one subject, experiencing them all together as a diverse but unified whole. Instead, there seem to be
two subjects – of separate (although of course still concurrent) sets of experiences:
3. First, there seems to be an intelligent, actively involved subject – call him my “I” (in quotation marks) – that is
directly p-conscious of one group of my experiences. The most obvious experiences that “I” am directly conscious of, on Chalmers’ list, are:
a) the thoughts that “I” am thinking (often but not always using the English language),
b) any of various kinds of mental images that these thoughts can call up, and
c) my sense of self, which is ever-present as well.
(btw I don’t get Chalmers’ claim that one only “sometimes feels” one’s sense of self, and that it “sometimes seems illusory.” My sense of self is always a very evident part of my conscious life. Isn’t yours?)
4. But (and here is the unexpected part, at least to me) this “I” of mine is in fact
not directly conscious of most of my other p-conscious experiences – my visual, auditory, olfactory, gustatory and tactile sensations, my feelings of pain, hot and cold, emotions, etc. To my “I,” when it tries to analyze those experiences, they seem to just be there as it were, already experienced without it. Their first-hand, direct experiencer is unknown, but that elusive entity – for kicks I’ll call it the “Hoozit” – doesn’t seem to be experiencing them via the
active, reflective use of intelligence, as “I” experience my thoughts. Experience is impossible without intelligence, though, so perhaps these kinds of experience are based on
passive intelligence?...
To reiterate, however, the first-hand experiencer of that set of conscious phenomena is definitely not my “I.” Because “I” don’t feel pain, for example (although of course I, without quotation marks, do). “I” somehow
know of the pain in the finger that I slammed in the cupboard door last week, but the actual experience of that pain is not something that “I” am involved in like “I” am in my experience of thinking.
5. I’m probably not communicating my point too clearly, so… another example: Have you ever been out on the street at night, waiting for the last bus maybe, and it’s January and you’re shivering almost out of control? Your entire being
owned by how cold it is? But then thought “Hey, stop over-reacting this ain’t Saskatchewan!” And let yourself relax, and pulled your thoughts back away from your body to the temperature-less place where your “I” is headquartered, inside your head. As your shivering eases and you realize “It’s not ‘me’ that feels cold anyway, it’s just my body. The cold can’t get to ‘me’ if I don’t let it.” ?
I have always found this experience interesting (especially as a clue to how pain-free dental surgery without anesthesia is possible, using hypnosis). But it only hit me recently that it means that I am p-consciously experiencing two opposing phenomena at the same time – a) the cold feeling dominating my body, and b) my realization that “I” am not cold. Showing that there are (at least) two separate parts of my mind having p-conscious experiences.
6. Okay then… so this “I,” this thinking subject, is not the direct experiencer of p-conscious phenomena like coldness. But it
can focus attention on them, and seemingly add to their content when it does. Additions which “I”
do seem to experience directly. Suppose e.g. that I’m walking in the woods with my wife, my “I” deep in p-conscious speculation about what p-zombies might have to teach us so that it is only the
sound of her talking beside me that I also experience, and not what she says. But then, before getting busted for inattentiveness, I shift focus from abstruse philosophical constructs to her, whereupon two interesting things happen at once: a) the thoughts that I was just thinking blink instantly out of existence, and b) “I” now know what she is saying.
How do we characterize what has happened in this case? Am “I” adding conscious content to my Hoozit’s auditory experience that wasn’t previously there? Or was it there all along somehow, even if I couldn’t possibly know of it? An interesting question… for another time I guess….
7. The concern of this post has been to question the assumption that all of one’s p-conscious experiences make up a seamless, unified whole. This seems usually taken for granted, as common sense, but many philosophers also try to justify it in various ways, including
Michael Tye,
Tim Bayne and David Chalmers, and
Barry Dainton (and there are of course some including
Daniel Dennett who deny it).
I believe a close look shows that a person’s p-conscious experiences are in fact not all unified (at least not at the conscious level). A close look indicates that there are two distinct subjects, of two distinct sets of experiences that only
seem to make up a unified whole. That they do seem united is I suppose a result of two things – first, in part, the fact that they are concurrent; and second, probably more importantly, because a person’s “I,” in knowing of its Hoozit’s experiences, tends to mistakenly assume that it is the one experiencing them itself….
8. To conclude, a quick summary comparison of the two subjects of my p-conscious experience:
One of them, the Hoozit, is capable of direct experience of a huge diversity of perceptual phenomena – sensory, bodily, emotional. Much of what makes my life so magical when I ever stop to notice. At the same time, however… it doesn’t show the slightest hint of any p-consciousness of its own existence. It is not
self-conscious. I guess because a “sense of self” is a cognitive construct, and not a type of sensation that can register with my Hoozit.
(Talk of “pre-reflective consciousness” is thus accurate, but not talk of the
pre-reflective self-consciousness postulated by some).
9. The other experiencer, my so-called “I” (sometimes aka “the Thinker”), is
very self-conscious. And in addition to being directly p-conscious of the set of phenomena that it itself specializes in, it knows of (and can even fill out at least some of) the p-conscious experiences of the Hoozit – even though not itself capable of the sensory perceptions that they involve.
It does not though truly know of its mysterious brother’s existence but can only logically
infer it, since, as pointed out, there is no sense of a self among the set of the Hoozit’s p-conscious experiences that my “I” has access to.
10. But there is still a puzzle here then, finally. Because how does my “I” come to know of its “brother”’s experiences? What is the mechanism through which it is informed of experiences not its own? There has to be something with connections to both my “I” and my Hoozit to make this possible. And depending upon what that something is (e.g. if it’s some distinct higher-order mental state), then my consciousness may I guess turn out to be linked all together after all. My alleged mind as a whole, the I without quotation marks, could be a real thing (just not a
conscious real thing apparently).